I used to think, it’s not very spiritual to love yourself so much,
Shouldn’t we be humble?
Isn’t it more noble to think of ourselves as just “being” and not exuding all of this grandiosity?
Maybe a little, but also,
I believe we can be humble while also loving the fuck out of ourselves,
Thats literally what we came for.
And why on earth would we bend to a society that profits so greatly from us shaming, hating, and shrinking ourselves? Is that more spiritual? More noble? More respectable?
Spirit already knows,
God already knows about “being”,
We came here for a full human experience,
We came here literally made from the energy of LOVE
So why the HELL would we not celebrate, embody, exude, and amplify that?Why on earth would we contract when the Universe wants to expand?
I believe deeply within humility is the essence of Self Love & acceptance
It does not have to be loud, or boisterous,
Self Love, self confidence, its rather quiet in how it presents,
The addiction to suffering, struggling, and downplaying our GOD GIVEN MAGIC is old, like really old and there is no more room for it now, this world needs you turned on by yourself,
Imagine no one ever told you to tone it down?
Imagine being celebrated in every moment of your being-ness?
Imagine every single aspect of you being you was nothing short of a miracle that you, and the entire world was constantly in AWE OF?
Imagine the miracles you would allow to flow through you?
Imagine the truth and the wisdom and the Soul saving medicine you would be producing,
If you just gave yourself your own permission to
To LOVE yourself, and all of your cells,
TO ADORE who you are in every phase of your evolution
TO admire your strength, your softness, your sensitivity, your intuition,
It gives me chills just thinking of a world of humans, awakened to their own inner gifts,
Fully activated in their Soul purpose,
Loving unconditionally, and compassionately,
Thriving in relationships, connections, and solo moments,
Because how could you for one second love someone any less than the way you love yourself, how could you ever even consider the possibility of not being Loved by someone else? I’ll tell you, You wouldn’t!
When you truly, fully, unconditionally, Love & Accept you,
Your relationships flourish with ease,
You live in your purpose,
You heal in your body,
You expand in your essence.
You live harmoniously, while also shaking shit up because you know that’s what you came for, to create ripple effects with your existence & shift the consciousness of this Universe.
The most spiritual thing you can do, is love the F*ck out of You.
We all have a dark side, a side we hide from the world, a side we don’t want anyone to see or know about…
A side we would almost die rather than have anyone find out exists within us…
and that is what hiding it does, it weakens our life force, it leaks our power, it renders us helpless….
Until… We fully own, accept, and love the f*ck out of every bit of it.
You take your power back when you recognize that there is nothing anyone could ever do or say to take away the absolute truth that lives within you
You are enough as you are
Your past does not define you
Your dark, dirty, wild, weird, ghastly secrets, do not change how lovable, worthy, and f*cking amazing you are.
The parts of you that you’ve rejected are holding you hostage.
You think you’re protecting yourself, and the world by shoving them down and avoiding their existence,
when you’re actually causing more damage than good by disconnecting from your wholeness.
You acknowledge, accept & integrate the shadow by recognizing what triggers & bothers you about other people, the things you judge in others, the words you will never let yourself even whisper, the envy you possess when someone gets or does something you wish you could but think you can’t, it’s the wild you try to tame, the “too much” you try to not to be, the emotions you refused to feel, the memories you wish weren’t real.
An untethering of yourself from everything else, and an integration of all you are within.
You are so incredibly powerful when you let yourself be unacceptably whole.
If you are ready to integrate ALL of you into your wholeness, ready to stop stalling on your desires & let yourself fully receive what you want in this lifetime, ready for fulfilling, healthy, intimate relationships, And, ready to be fully responsible for all of it, then my private mentorship can be the place where you fully reclaim all of it.
I have a spot open in my 1:1 Soul Alignment Program, where you get clear about what you want, remove all of the bullshit beliefs about why you can’t or don’t have it and then move forward into the love, life, & purpose you came to live, instead of the one someone else said you should.
My mission, my message, my purpose has always, and will always be this:
TRUST your own inner knowing
TRUST your own inner power
TRUST your own innate intelligence
TRUST your own Souls guidance
No matter what is going on “out there”, there is a powerful system within you, guiding you, It truly is NO ones business, and you owe no one Not one ounce of an explanation as to why you choose what you choose. IN any capacity.
Not in your love/relationships,
Not in your investments or finances,
Not in your career/business,
Not in your own health & wellness.
Those who know me well know that for most of my life I struggled with severe health anxiety, resulting in extreme panic attacks and at times leading to a very physical breakdown of my body – the very thing I feared initially (this is how how energy, the unconscious, & the laws of attraction work FYI)
The source of this anxiousness, the trauma it stems from I am very aware of, and it is very personal and nothing I ever have felt the need to explain to anyone. I consistently do the inner work, and still utilize my resources when needed to continually heal my mind & nervous system around this, although it is MUCH less needed than it once was.
One thing I Have always been certain of right down to my bones, is that the answer, the healing that I need will always come from within me.
No matter what tools we use, our energy, mindset & spirit play the biggest roles in our wellbeing & healing. I know this intuitively, intelligently, and intellectually.
It has been a lifetime of circumstances that have led me to diving deeper than most people ever would consider, when it comes to healthcare, healing, physical, emotional, mental, & spiritual well being.
No one else’s choices are your business.
And your choices are no one else’s business.
What matters the most, I guarantee you this, is how aligned you are within when it comes to your decisions.
I can say with some level of certainly that when you take your last breath, very little else will matter to you other than “Did I do what I knew to be absolutely best, and true for me?” Not about what others thought of, or felt was best for you.
My belief, and knowing, will always rest in trusting that each and every one of us, ultimately knows whats best for our own Souls evolution and it only pulls us further away from our own inner being when we try to dictate or control another persons decisions, choices, and evolution.
I know you want it NOW, yesterday even.
I know the waiting has got you beyond impatient.
I know you’re ready for the next step, your breakthrough, the ease, the flow, the relationship, the abundance.
I know you’ve had enough of the same old, living like this.
Patience didn’t come here with me, I rushed into this world so quick they barely got my Mom from the car to the hospital bed, and at only minutes old I was already lifting my head.
But always seeking what’s next continuously takes us all out of this very moment and the cold hard, beautiful, truth is – this moment right here – it really is all there is.
We can plan & prepare for the moments ahead but as we get there we realize, those moments are still – now.
How do you get where you want to be when where you are pretty much sucks? Or perhaps it just isn’t the best you know is possible for you…
The most important lesson I’ve learned so far on this journey of creation, manifesting & evolving is – you have Got to enjoy, appreciate, love the fuck out of this moment you’re in.
It seems cruel sometimes, how could this be the way when I want something better or different now!
But once you see that there are endless things to appreciate in this moment – & you really truly get down to the business of loving the fuck out of where you are – holy shit shifts happen fast!
We just have to get out of our own way to let it happen.
Make a list right now of 20 or more things RIGHT NOW that you can appreciate in your life – I know they exist. Send me a message if you need a little assistance coming up with some. Continue this list daily, stay in the moment WHILE holding the energy and vision of where you’re going and be prepared for the magical unfolding.
For most of my life, living felt like a huge struggle to me, a burden really. It felt like at every single corner I turned there was something there, holding me back, stopping me, derailing me.
I largely, very very largely, felt as if the whole world was against me. I felt like this in my home, I felt like this out in traffic, I felt like this in the grocery store. Everywhere I went, everything I did, I simply felt like I could just not win,
Have you ever heard someone mutter that phrase? I just can’t win?
Up until I discovered that my life was very much governed by my own internal decisions, I never noticed how self defeating and discouraging this phrase was. And oh there are SO many others that go with it that perpetuate a cycle that does not ever see or support one actually “winning”. Whatever that means anyways,
BUT for me,
Winning, getting ahead, making it in this life etc…
Simply means that I actually want to be here, that I enjoy being here, that I live a life that feels easy not because there are no challenges or adversity, but because I am well equipped, knowledged, and so centered within my self that no matter what happens in the world around me, I am stable, calm, at peace and most importantly LOVING life and ME.
Recently I was journaling on something in particular being easy for me, and I felt the constriction of doubt knocking on my body. So I inquired within about it and I noticed that somewhere deep inside my psyche there was still a little part of me that held on to the belief that it could not only NOT be easy but that – easy left little room for – doing. Meaning that if things are easy, then what is there to worry over, what is there to prove? What is there to DO? If this thing got to be so easy, then where would the purpose and meaning of life actually be?
And it was so good that this little hidden sabotageur presented itself for me to see, so that I could acknowledge it and then reframe what life NOT being easy means, so that I would not unconsciously go ahead and make the very thing I choose to be easy for me become a challenge or struggle that I consciously DO not want, but somehow still held some kind of value onto.
There is this little thing (thats actually a big thing) that is sometimes called – secondary gain, otherwise known as an unconscious value that we unknowingly – until we choose awareness and inquire within – place on certain things in our life that once served a subjectively important purpose that can hang on and cause all kinds of resistance and sabotage in our lives if we do not choose to become aware of them. These values look like – saying yes when we want to say NO, because at some point that acquiesce was a method of keeping us safe, or not allowing for much money in the bank or much love into our hearts, because at one time it was all taken away and so to avoid ever feeling that pain and loss again our precious unconscious mind does what it does best and repeats old patterns to keep us safe from the things we fear the most.
While fear is necessary in times of actual physical danger, it has very very little place in making choices and decisions about how you NOW choose to live & BE in your life.
So I want to ask you, with this knowledge, is there anything you want now, that you do not have, that an old outdated belief, story, or fear may be anchored in place holding you back from?
Can you find the value or gain from NOT having or doing or BEing the thing even though consciously and SOULFully you WANT it deeply?
When you integrate the many layers of your physical and spiritual existence and work with your innate desires while being aware of self imposed (not necessarily by choice or awareness ) physiological & psychological barriers – you unlock the door to your Souls freedom.
So a few weeks ago I submitted an article to be published in the Huffington Post. It was like a dream come true to receive an email back from Arianna Huffington’s email account approving my post in less than 24 hours.
This week I was finally able to publish my post.
It is a very real and raw account of events that happened in my life to shape who I have become today.
After years of self sabotage, poor decisions and one failed relationship after another (if we can even call them that), I finally found my way back to loving myself wholly and truly.
It is my hope that women who read this will know that they too can pick themselves back up and find love within themselves again and release the shame and burden that is all too familiar with an abusive situation.
I am choosing to share my voice, and my story to help women who have been where I have been, or still are.
If you are ready to move forward into loving yourself fully again, please contact me for a free call to explore the possibility of working together <3
Here is the link to the article:
From a Cheap Love Addiction to a Self Love Affinity
Thank you For reading <3 xo