We All Have a Dark Side

We All Have a Dark Side

We all have a dark side, a side we hide from the world, a side we don’t want anyone to see or know about…

A side we would almost die rather than have anyone find out exists within us…
and that is what hiding it does, it weakens our life force, it leaks our power, it renders us helpless….
Until… We fully own, accept, and love the f*ck out of every bit of it.
You take your power back when you recognize that there is nothing anyone could ever do or say to take away the absolute truth that lives within you
You are enough as you are
Your past does not define you
Your dark, dirty, wild, weird, ghastly secrets, do not change how lovable, worthy, and f*cking amazing you are.
The parts of you that you’ve rejected are holding you hostage.
You think you’re protecting yourself, and the world by shoving them down and avoiding their existence,
when you’re actually causing more damage than good by disconnecting from your wholeness.

You acknowledge, accept & integrate the shadow by recognizing what triggers & bothers you about other people, the things you judge in others, the words you will never let yourself even whisper, the envy you possess when someone gets or does something you wish you could but think you can’t, it’s the wild you try to tame, the “too much” you try to not to be, the emotions you refused to feel, the memories you wish weren’t real.

An untethering of yourself from everything else, and an integration of all you are within.

You are so incredibly powerful when you let yourself be unacceptably whole. 🖤

If you are ready to integrate ALL of you into your wholeness, ready to stop stalling on your desires & let yourself fully receive what you want in this lifetime, ready for fulfilling, healthy, intimate relationships, And, ready to be fully responsible for all of it, then my private mentorship can be the place where you fully reclaim all of it.
I have a spot open in my 1:1 Soul Alignment Program, where you get clear about what you want, remove all of the bullshit beliefs about why you can’t or don’t have it and then move forward into the love, life, & purpose you came to live, instead of the one someone else said you should.
Send me a message if you’re ready to begin
The Mission Has Always Been…

The Mission Has Always Been…

My mission, my message, my purpose has always, and will always be this:

TRUST your own inner knowing
TRUST your own inner power
TRUST your own innate intelligence
TRUST your own Souls guidance
No matter what is going on “out there”, there is a powerful system within you, guiding you, It truly is NO ones business, and you owe no one Not one ounce of an explanation as to why you choose what you choose. IN any capacity.
Not in your love/relationships,
Not in your investments or finances,
Not in your career/business,
Not in your own health & wellness.

Those who know me well know that for most of my life I struggled with severe health anxiety, resulting in extreme panic attacks and at times leading to a very physical breakdown of my body – the very thing I feared initially (this is how how energy, the unconscious, & the laws of attraction work FYI)
The source of this anxiousness, the trauma it stems from I am very aware of, and it is very personal and nothing I ever have felt the need to explain to anyone. I consistently do the inner work, and still utilize my resources when needed to continually heal my mind & nervous system around this, although it is MUCH less needed than it once was.
One thing I Have always been certain of right down to my bones, is that the answer, the healing that I need will always come from within me.
No matter what tools we use, our energy, mindset & spirit play the biggest roles in our wellbeing & healing. I know this intuitively, intelligently, and intellectually.

It has been a lifetime of circumstances that have led me to diving deeper than most people ever would consider, when it comes to healthcare, healing, physical, emotional, mental, & spiritual well being.
No one else’s choices are your business.
And your choices are no one else’s business.
What matters the most, I guarantee you this, is how aligned you are within when it comes to your decisions.
I can say with some level of certainly that when you take your last breath, very little else will matter to you other than “Did I do what I knew to be absolutely best, and true for me?” Not about what others thought of, or felt was best for you.
My belief, and knowing, will always rest in trusting that each and every one of us, ultimately knows whats best for our own Souls evolution and it only pulls us further away from our own inner being when we try to dictate or control another persons decisions, choices, and evolution.
Stay aligned.
The Disconnect is Causing the Discontent

The Disconnect is Causing the Discontent

We are multidimensional beings
And our whole works best, with all parts in alignment
When we separate ourself from our inner Being/Source/Soul – we disassemble the whole and cause a cascade of chaos, un-rest, and unhappiness.
This causes grave discontentment that feels akin to a slow, agonizing death, whether physical, emotional, spiritual, or mental- or all.
This leads to seeking for something to ease the discontent, something that looks like it could easily be found – out there- but only leads to more inner anguish as each goal or object is achieved and yet there is still an absence of inner peace. It leads to constant over consumption, reaching for more and more, with no real lasting fulfillment and the cycle is perpetuated. Creating a heaviness that feels constricting and suffocating. It starts to feel hopeless when no matter what is found, out there, no matter what is consumed, what is done, what is sought after, strived for, reached, – there still seems to be a gapping missing piece.
All the while, the connection has always been steadily flowing to and through you- but we often don’t see the forest for the trees, and all of the distractions cause blurred perspectives which cause us to drift further from our inner connection.
But, the beauty of it is, it is the one constant that never waivers, it is an ever lasting eternal presence that though we may not be able to “see”, it is always right there, waiting for us, to just – BE.

When we return back home to Soul- to our own inner knowing, to the one connection we can always be sure and certain of, to the guidance of a power greater than, yet comprised of, us, we return to wholeness and FROM wholeness- we live in alignment, in integrity, in certainty, in clarity, in peace, joy, and humility.
We live truthfully, faithfully, purposefully.

We live by the YES’ and are only re directed by NO.
We always have a secure place within to call “home” and return to at any moment
We are guided to outer experiences to expand and evolve us, without depending or needing them for our survival.

We know, without a doubt, that these mortal bodies are temporary vessels for a vast physical experience guided by an inner source that has NO end.
When we shift the focus to within, we do not miss out on the outer world, we in fact deepen our connection to all that is around us, by first solidifying the connection inside of ourselves – Which just happens to be the source that lives within, and around us – there is nowhere we go that our source is not.
The discontent eases when we regain our connection and remember our purpose – to experience the full extent of this existence.
The consumption and exploring and receiving is all a part of it, we are meant to experience it all,
But it is not the end all and be all, it is not what improves or validates the existence we live, it is what enriches the experience, it is what expands our Souls mission and vision.
If you want contentment, with or without consumption, you must first rekindle the connection within – and all else will respond to your inner alignment.
If you are ready to re-connect, reclaim inner peace, power & happiness, cultivate healthy loving relationships, and align with your Souls purpose
I have a few spaces open in my 6 month 1:1 Soul Alignment Mentorship – where we reconnect Body, Mind & Spirit for a whole healing & expanding experience.
Send me a message for more info XO

The quickest way to get “THERE”

I know you want it NOW, yesterday even.
I know the waiting has got you beyond impatient.
I know you’re ready for the next step, your breakthrough, the ease, the flow, the relationship, the abundance.
I know you’ve had enough of the same old, living like this.
Patience didn’t come here with me, I rushed into this world so quick they barely got my Mom from the car to the hospital bed, and at only minutes old I was already lifting my head.
Ready for what’s next.
But always seeking what’s next continuously takes us all out of this very moment and the cold hard, beautiful, truth is – this moment right here – it really is all there is.
We can plan & prepare for the moments ahead but as we get there we realize, those moments are still – now.
How do you get where you want to be when where you are pretty much sucks? Or perhaps it just isn’t the best you know is possible for you…
The most important lesson I’ve learned so far on this journey of creation, manifesting & evolving is – you have Got to enjoy, appreciate, love the fuck out of this moment you’re in.
It seems cruel sometimes, how could this be the way when I want something better or different now! 😭
But once you see that there are endless things to appreciate in this moment – & you really truly get down to the business of loving the fuck out of where you are – holy shit shifts happen fast!
We just have to get out of our own way to let it happen.
Make a list right now of 20 or more things RIGHT NOW that you can appreciate in your life – I know they exist. Send me a message if you need a little assistance coming up with some. Continue this list daily, stay in the moment WHILE holding the energy and vision of where you’re going and be prepared for the magical unfolding.
You can do this.
Massive Love to you xo.

How easy can it really be?



For most of my life, living felt like a huge struggle to me, a burden really. It felt like at every single corner I turned there was something there, holding me back, stopping me, derailing me. 

I largely, very very largely, felt as if the whole world was against me. I felt like this in my home, I felt like this out in traffic, I felt like this in the grocery store. Everywhere I went, everything I did, I simply felt like I could just not win,

Have you ever heard someone mutter that phrase? I just can’t win?

Up until I discovered that my life was very much governed by my own internal decisions, I never noticed how self defeating and discouraging this phrase was. And oh there are SO many others that go with it that perpetuate a cycle that does not ever see or support one actually “winning”. Whatever that means anyways, 

BUT for me, 

Winning, getting ahead, making it in this life etc… 

Simply means that I actually want to be here, that I enjoy being here, that I live a life that feels easy not because there are no challenges or adversity, but because I am well equipped, knowledged, and so centered within my self that no matter what happens in the world around me, I am stable, calm, at peace and most importantly LOVING life and ME.

Recently I was journaling on something in particular being easy for me, and I felt the constriction of doubt knocking on my body. So I inquired within about it and I noticed that somewhere deep inside my psyche there was still a little part of me that held on to the belief that it could not only NOT be easy but that – easy left little room for – doing. Meaning that if things are easy, then what is there to worry over, what is there to prove? What is there to DO? If this thing got to be so easy, then where would the purpose and meaning of life actually be?

And it was so good that this little hidden sabotageur presented itself for me to see, so that I could acknowledge it and then reframe what life NOT being easy means, so that I would not unconsciously go ahead and make the very thing I choose to be easy for me become a challenge or struggle that I consciously DO not want, but somehow still held some kind of value onto. 

There is this little thing (thats actually a big thing) that is sometimes called – secondary gain, otherwise known as an unconscious value that we unknowingly – until we choose awareness and inquire within – place on certain things in our life that once served a subjectively important purpose that can hang on and cause all kinds of resistance and sabotage in our lives if we do not choose to become aware of them. These values look like – saying yes when we want to say NO, because at some point that acquiesce was a method of keeping us safe, or not allowing for much money in the bank or much love into our hearts, because at one time it was all taken away and so to avoid ever feeling that pain and loss again our precious unconscious mind does what it does best and repeats old patterns to keep us safe from the things we fear the most.

While fear is necessary in times of actual physical danger, it has very very little place in making choices and decisions about how you NOW choose to live & BE in your life.

So I want to ask you, with this knowledge, is there anything you want now, that you do not have, that an old outdated belief, story, or fear may be anchored in place holding you back from?

Can you find the value or gain from NOT having or doing or BEing the thing even though consciously and SOULFully you WANT it deeply?

When you integrate the many layers of your physical and spiritual existence and work with your innate desires while being aware of self imposed (not necessarily by choice or awareness ) physiological & psychological barriers – you unlock the door to your Souls freedom.


Hold Yourself Accountable

Holding other people accountable, setting boundaries and standards does not negate you from holding yourself accountable first and foremost.

Being empowered is being able to be brutally honest with yourself.

It’s being able to look at your own shit, and be able to acknowledge it and be willing to transform it without judging or criticizing it.

When you are in complete alignment with yourself, you will find more and more that you do not need to cut off, block, or limit anyone else.

If people keep appearing in your life whom you feel you need to detox yourself from then it’s time to look within.

Holding people to a higher standard first means holding yourself that standard.

Stop expecting people to meet you where you haven’t even met yourself.

When you focus on what others are doing or not doing you are shifting responsibility away from yourself.

When you walk your talk you effortlessly attract those who are already in alignment or willing to meet you at your standards, or, you repel those who are not.

It is not enough to set boundaries and standards that tell others what to do and how to behave if they want to be anywhere around you. It’s time for you to take radical responsibility for yourself. To go within and see where you are unconsciously creating what you keep seeing. And when the same kind of people keep showing up it’s a very good indication that there is something going on within you that you have yet to turn your attention to. There is a belief or story that is running in the background that is keeping this active within your vibration and attracting the things you keep saying you don’t want.

If you want better relationships, better people in your life, more peace, love & happiness, then you have to begin by looking at your own inner stuff and remove your attention from what everyone else is doing, or not doing while you focus on recalibrating you.

You are always the common denominator, you are the center of your universe, you attract what is dominant within you. So when you are attracting what you don’t want you have to ask yourself where am I doing this unconsciously? Where am I being the very thing I am trying to get away from?

It is not enough to cast away people who you say aren’t meeting your expectations or standards, when you haven’t even met your own yet.

Focus on you, and when you do, you will no longer need to worry about what others are doing, or not doing. People will show up the way you believe they will, every time.

It is no ones responsibility to show up how you think they should for you, it is your responsibility to show up and be the energetic match for what you want and expect for yourself.